I admit it. I'm Guilty.

I have to say I loved that article about the guilt trips people take because, honestly, I never realized how much I feel guilty for until I sat down and really thought about it. Most of the time, teenagers feel empowering and good about themselves when they disobey their parents or doing something they weren't suppose to do. But how often does it come back to haunt them? I think that depends on the kind of person you are.

Truth: I am a goody-two-shoes. My parent know everything I do.. Well, my mom does.  

I usually don't do anything bad that she doesn't know about or has not given me permission to do. But does that easy my guilty feelings? Most of the time. Other times I become so paranoid that someone else is going to think I'm a horrible person of what I have done. Even if it is just stealing a piece of candy from the giant candy display a Krogers. 

I feel bad when I eat the last of the Oreos when I know my mom will be wanting some later. I feel guilty for reading my book after midnight. I feel guilty for Facebook stalking my friends. All of these guilt trips make me lame. But I own it. I ride the guilt train, but it isn't for breaking curfew or smoking cigarettes. My guilt trains takes me on a journey at a speed of about 0.25mph and I am A-OKAY with that. 

This was just waiting to get out.

Well, I finally finished my essay for The Road and I'm not exactly sure how I feel about that.  It took forever and right now I'm running on 4 to 5 hours of sleep.  This day is going to be fun.. Not really. Now I get to do it all over again with a totally different book. Let's hope this book is good because it is going to take a lot to keep me away from The Indigo Spell when it comes out in about 6 days!!!  Anyways, I don't really have much to say in the blog, partly because I haven't had a chance to read the assigned section for Beloved. Let's talk about ALL-STATE.

Holy crap I leave in less than an hour to go to ALL-STATE. Woo!  I'm really excited but really nervous too since I haven't had much time to study my music.  Between homework for all of my AP classes, work and softball, I don't know how I'm going to get through this semester.  I feel as if I'm already behind in a lot of my classes.  It's just so hard to balance everything but I guess I have to get use to it when I go to college.

Sorry this blog be basically 95% ranting but I needed to get all of this worrying, excitement, and stress out of my head and out into the open.  People always look at high school students and say, "Oh, it must be hard having teachers hand you things all the time." Well guess what. IT IS. And besides teachers don't even do that so stop saying it!

Okay, I'm done.  Next week, I promise it will be complex and discuss literature or something that goes on in English but for right now.. Here you go.