Can't College Wait? Doesn't it know I'm Busy?

College.  The word that can excite or scare any senior on the face of the Earth.  It hasn't entirely hit me yet that in 365 days my life will be dramatically changed by the so called place of education.  But it's started to make its move.  Wednesday's English class was full of College and applications and graduation and everything else that I am not ready to face right now.  I know that it's going to come.  But I don't want it to.  I am not good with change.  I don't like the idea of leaving home; however, I'm really excited about it too.  I feel like I'm stuck in Katy Perry's "Hot 'N Cold" song with my future.

I do have some idea of what I want to do.  I'm not the kind of person to flake out on something this important but I will admit that it takes me a while to get motivated to begin projects like this.  It's frightening to I'll leave everyone that I care about behind because I don't want to stay here.  I've always dreamed of the true college experience.  The late night Ramen Noodles for dinner.  The all-nighters in libraries and everything else that comes with being a poor but dedicated college student.  The hard part is the pre-college experience.

I make hard choices all the time, like what lanes I can down to avoid the cookie aisle; I have to say I have some experience in this particular field.  But college is 4 years of my life and I don't know if I can commit to one type of cookie for a major chapter in my life.  It's hard. It sucks. It's life.  I have to face it sooner rather than later.  Wednesday was a major eye opener for me.  It's time to be excited for the future and not hold on to what will be gone in 9 months.  Good news is I have some ideas of where I want to go. I just need to take the next step that I have been avoiding for a very long time.

Literary v. Commercial

I have read a whole lot of books.  I love to read but I never gave much thought to the different kinds of books other that fiction v. nonfiction and everything in between.  Usually when I pick a book, I go for the cute fun looking fiction books that will actually keep me entertain for a while whether it be two days or three weeks.  It's kind of weird know now that there are two different types of fiction books.  I can now look back and categorize the books that I have read into these categories.

Although I have read a lot of books, I tend read Commercial books more than I do Literary books.  Don't get me wrong, I love Literary books and have read plenty of them; there's just something about the Commercial books that draw me in more than the Literary books do.

It weird though because my favorite book of all time, Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice, leans more toward the Literary side on the Literary v. Commercial spectrum.  Personally, I think I would enjoy the Literary books more if I could just get into them before having to read them for school or watching the movie before reading the book.  Honestly, I would sometimes rather read the deep-filled meaning books more than the sugar coated Commercial books; they just aren't there when I need a good book.

If I were to choose between the two categories, I would pick the Literary books over Commercial books.  I love them both but I prefer the books that people actually have deep discussions about, books that use a wide variety of vocabulary, and books that have multiple meanings to them.  So its official. Literary wins while Commercial falls.