Can't College Wait? Doesn't it know I'm Busy?

College.  The word that can excite or scare any senior on the face of the Earth.  It hasn't entirely hit me yet that in 365 days my life will be dramatically changed by the so called place of education.  But it's started to make its move.  Wednesday's English class was full of College and applications and graduation and everything else that I am not ready to face right now.  I know that it's going to come.  But I don't want it to.  I am not good with change.  I don't like the idea of leaving home; however, I'm really excited about it too.  I feel like I'm stuck in Katy Perry's "Hot 'N Cold" song with my future.

I do have some idea of what I want to do.  I'm not the kind of person to flake out on something this important but I will admit that it takes me a while to get motivated to begin projects like this.  It's frightening to I'll leave everyone that I care about behind because I don't want to stay here.  I've always dreamed of the true college experience.  The late night Ramen Noodles for dinner.  The all-nighters in libraries and everything else that comes with being a poor but dedicated college student.  The hard part is the pre-college experience.

I make hard choices all the time, like what lanes I can down to avoid the cookie aisle; I have to say I have some experience in this particular field.  But college is 4 years of my life and I don't know if I can commit to one type of cookie for a major chapter in my life.  It's hard. It sucks. It's life.  I have to face it sooner rather than later.  Wednesday was a major eye opener for me.  It's time to be excited for the future and not hold on to what will be gone in 9 months.  Good news is I have some ideas of where I want to go. I just need to take the next step that I have been avoiding for a very long time.